tadpoles
Wednesday, September 26, 2007

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the little kids in the locker room at the y.

their teachers distract them with impromptu singalong songs when they get
too fidgety. they’re always sitting or standing (both of which involve wriggling)
in single file for one thing or another (to get their swim caps on, to go up to
the gym, to go to the sunshine room, etc.) and percolating into rhyming songs.

once, when cal and i were leaving, the kids were doing their best version of
a straight line against the wall, but things were getting mighty fidgety.
the teacher was trying to get the percolation thing going, but two little boys
in the back were un-defidgetable. they were gently touching their tongues
against each others’ – not the pointy tips, mind you, but the fleshy middles –
and then giggling, electric with what i can only think of as glee.
(not a word i would normally bandy about. nobody’s really “gleeful” anymore, are
they? has anybody been “full of glee” in the last five decades? half-full maybe?)

from the front of the line, the teacher snapped out of song to remind everyone in the
hallway all that we don’t do that, and that in fact, we keep our hands
and our tongues to ourselves.
but i’m pretty sure it was too late.
i’m pretty sure they’re not forgetting that feeling.

san genarro
Monday, September 24, 2007

we walked through the waning hours of the feast last night…
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the vendors were dismantling their booths with cordless
drills while the last orders of calamari soggied on the stainless.
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waiters in red jackets perched on five-gallon buckets
to snip the sparkly fringe from the sign above their heads.
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it was getting late and the carnies were cranky.
squirt-the-clown-in-the mouth-game #1 barker:
“lucky number 13 ain’t so lucky.
use lucky number 12.
12 is luckier cuz it actually works.”
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squirt-the-clown-in-the-mouth-game #2 barker:
“yo, birthday girl – wake up. did you pay me yet?”
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the crowd parts to let pass a man
with a parrot on his head,
a parrot on his shoulder,
an iguana in his arms and
a snake around his chest.

the zeppoli guy snorts, “he thinks he’s friggin’ noah.”

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(photo dedication #1: paul lukas)

barn ultimatum
Friday, September 21, 2007

(sorry… i couldn’t help it. it’s just such a good fit.)

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scout and i have spent the last week consumed with this gorgeous
barn that we are hoping to buy. we’d planned on researching this
endeavor for about a year before we found anything… but we found
something. so we’re crash test cramming about adjustable rate
mortgages and appraisals and septic systems and closing costs and
under floor heating and carpenter ants and, of course, the power of
positive thinking. (or its new millenium counterpart: the secret)

Clovis
Sunday, September 16, 2007

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Clovis, the Parakeet. With us from 3.29.02 until 9.11.07.

This entry is dedicated to the most tenacious of tiny parakeets,
Clovis, the Parakeet. We buried Clovis today, after 5 1/2 years
of enjoying her company. While it was never quite clear that she
enjoyed ours, I like to think that was just the New Yorker in her.
Here is a sketch of her from my journal on the day she came to us:

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And here is an essay from 2002, in which Clovis plays a starring role:

Early Warning Systems

Bye, Clovie. We’ll miss your humble morning singing and your
dramatic ignoring of us.

another excerpt…
Thursday, September 13, 2007

six years ago, after a summer of loose ends, i drove the truckful
of my worldlys into new york for my official arrival in my new home
on september 10th, 2001. the text below is an excerpt from the journal
i wrote that night.

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on the train, the late twenties, light-skinned black woman squints over
her head to locate the source of the drip onto the book in her lap.

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a mid thirties, pale-skinned white man balances himself by draping
his wrist over the rail above his head. he holds a shorty umbrella.

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the woman double-checks the connection between his
umbrella and her book, plots the trajectory the drip would need
to take, and, satisfied that this is the actual source, she does
nothing.

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she doesn’t shift her book or her body, but keeps reading.

Homecoming
Tuesday, September 11, 2007

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Yesterday, Scout and I raced back from his upstate-birthday-fishing trip for the
evening’s events: “The Table”, in all of its glorious retro-propaganda, was
unveiled last night at the Southside Firestation in Williamsburg. There was
cake and coconut soda, panned pasta and plastic forks. Father Fonti gave a
blessing over what would be this locus of comeraderie, a key to strength. It
was all very touching, and humbling, and it happened to fall on the 6th anniversary
of my move to New York.

Six years ago yesterday, I addressed New York City in my journal, saying,

“You are not home to me, yet.”

I had run into a friend who was leaving the city after six years of struggling here.
I addressed/recorded myself, saying,

“You feel hints of twinges of worry over your decision, and wonder if you’ll
be any further from your start point in six years.”

Six years later, whether I am further from my “start point”, is a complicated question
that I’ll probably be reflecting on a lot in the next few weeks…

…but when the firemen know you by name, I think it’s safe to say you’re home.

still working on the firehouse table…
Wednesday, September 5, 2007

…which means i’m working on limited external stimuli until the weekend.
in the meantime, please consider another excerpt from the journal i
started 6 years ago this summer, when i was visiting new york, finalizing
the details for my move here:

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one long row of black men sleeping on the subway

little girl – your mom picks your nose
– you pluck your sister’s bra strap
– you pucker your lips for kissing

dark skinned asian man in yellow havana shirt and rolled brown trousers,
nodding his head in approval of my lunch on the step, then opening his
arms wide in the middle of the street to hug from a distance people i
couldn’t see.

dear yoshitoma nara:
my heart calms and i cry for you.
your work is so beautiful.
please live forever.

love,
george

and another excerpt…
Tuesday, September 4, 2007

…from the journal i started 6 years ago this summer,
when i was visiting new york, finalizing the details for my move here:

yesterday you found the wandering rabbi, his hasidic
curls gone wild. sores at his neck and sweating, he approached
each latina-looking girl and inquired urgently if she spoke english,
and even more urgently if she were going to the beach. all of his
repressed curiosities uncurled in front of the bank on havemeyer.
then a mini-van full of younger hasidim double-parked
and scooped him up, their black coats and their language
flapping angrily around him.

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Monday, September 3, 2007

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paul

Monday, September 3, 2007

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mom

charm city
Monday, September 3, 2007

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just back from a visit to baltimore. usually when i go home, i just visit
with my mom, but this trip was more comprehensive. i visited with
each of my brothers and their families,

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plus, a childhood friend and i walked
around the neighborhood where we grew up.

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this is the house where my childhood unfolded. when we lived there,
it was covered with classic baltimore formstone, so it feels like it’s lost
its soft edges, but the memories flood back just the same…
…there was the summer my little brother and i were condemned to sitting
on that step on the right, (under the awning that wasn’t there) after a
minor foray into arson.
…and the summer that no one in the neigborhood ate crabs, after the
drowning (and delayed retrieval of the body) of baby vincent. (a story
for another day.)
…there were the crimes, both petty and awful, committed
by our neighbors on all sides – the broken windows, the glue-huffing,
the murder (with a brick, of all things baltimore-specific.)

there were also wonderful city-kid memories…

… climbing quick-like-spiders up alley walls to hide during a game
of tin can alley.
…drinking orange fountain soda and eating powdererd sugar
donuts while sitting on the curb in the picture.
…all the kids in the neighborhood painting my dad’s old
panel truck green – with brushes and rollers – while it was
parked just in front of that tree.
…sneaking into this lot to climb on that roof to watch fireworks on the 4th:
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i feel like i’ve just eaten a madeleine….